{"id":1056,"date":"2009-10-03T10:08:31","date_gmt":"2009-10-03T17:08:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cciforum.dreamhosters.com\/?p=1056"},"modified":"2013-01-31T10:43:52","modified_gmt":"2013-01-31T18:43:52","slug":"the-self-takes-us-over-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cciforum.dreamhosters.com\/?p=1056","title":{"rendered":"The Self Takes Us Over"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve been challenging myself, that is, saying ‘no’<\/em> to different things I want — to see how that feels. \u00c2\u00a0The obvious thing I noticed was that giving in to the desire, or saying ‘yes’<\/em> to it happened only once, but when I said ‘no’<\/em> I did so repeatedly — the desire kept returning.\u00c2\u00a0 Watching that insistence<\/em> was interesting, it was like an urge nudging me. \u00c2\u00a0It often arose in the form of an imagined feeling and image; how I would feel and even look enjoying what I wanted. \u00c2\u00a0This was a definite pulling apart from where I was just prior to the arising of this desired or imagined pleasure. \u00c2\u00a0Because just prior to the desire I remember just moving with whatever presented itself; sometimes I was watching TV, another time I was reading. \u00c2\u00a0Both times I was engaged with that activity without much distraction.<\/p>\n

Saying ‘no’<\/em> to the desire as it arose in my imagination actually produced a tinge of anxiety, because I realized I would remain separate from what I imagined, there would be no satisfaction, but on the other hand, this inquiry was also interesting, and I wanted to see where it led.\u00c2\u00a0 So it would seem another desire took the place of the original one.\u00c2\u00a0 I thought this was curious too; observing how I was being led from one subtle desire to another. \u00c2\u00a0I thought of what Michael quoted from Kafka was probably true, ‘the self takes us over’<\/em>.<\/p>\n

David<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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