Wow, have I been in the dark lately. So much tension, stress and resentment to what is happening in my life and to continue these classes, so many I want this and I want that. The \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I\u00e2\u20ac\u009d in the first sentence, has taken control. It has been skeptical about this whole inquiry stuff. Wants to be left alone. No enjoyment of the good things that are happening, just nagging about losses, complaining and afraid.. By saying no to any projection of what live will be like in the future the \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I\u00e2\u20ac\u009d was left in total frustration and very clear in roaring its anger and pain. With the future open with no sense of what it will be like, where to live, or even the possibility of a new job. \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I\u00e2\u20ac\u009d feels lost. When \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I\u00e2\u20ac\u009d has taken control it is almost impossible to sense what \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I\u00e2\u20ac\u009d is at this moment. But at times it seems possible to stop the nagging, to hush it. To relax into just being and listen from deep within to the sounds of the birds outside, sensing the energies that surround us, new impulses that are ready to be discovered, just relaxing the muscles and witnessing the rough energies that seem to be occupying life lately instead of being taken by these. Not to interpret these sounds and energies seems to be the most effective way to settle the self in a more receptive mode. Playing with the self in this way feels like gaining some control over a wild horse. To observe the games of self is like finding out about a domineering companion in life. And strangely somehow when there is more space between experience and I, there is the dawn of a tranquil alive quality that is different, loving, present.<\/p>\n
Thieu Berkhout<\/p>\n
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Wow, have I been in the dark lately. So much tension, stress and resentment to what is happening in my life and to continue these classes, so many I want this and I want that. The \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I\u00e2\u20ac\u009d in the first … Continue reading