Walking to the shops and during shopping, I attempted to rest awareness at the arising of the future. The first thing I noticed was that \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcI\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 was not there (at least not in the usual\/habitual sense that I feel myself to be \u00e2\u20ac\u02dchere\u00e2\u20ac\u2122). I had to go back, to drop away into the past <\/i>(to drop into linear time?) to find \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcmyself\u00e2\u20ac\u2122.<\/p>\n
At future\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s arising \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcI\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 was subsumed in what I saw, heard, felt and not in any reaction to any of that: advertisements on street corners; notices in shop windows; the vibrant quality of people I met in the street and in shops. Again, this was rather spatial for me \u00e2\u20ac\u201c I felt to be focused in the front of the body. The density of me lay \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcbehind and down\u00e2\u20ac\u2122.<\/p>\n
Sometimes, sitting quietly, it is the sense of an (audible) rushing of time \u00e2\u20ac\u02dctowards\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 me. Almost like a non-substantial river of unborn possibilities \u00e2\u20ac\u201c hugely invigorating, refreshing and inspiring.<\/p>\n
I mentioned during Sunday\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s class that receiving the future seemed to be associated with the in-breath. I am struck by the double meaning of the verb \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcto inspire\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 !!<\/p>\n
Caroline<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Walking to the shops and during shopping, I attempted to rest awareness at the arising of the future. The first thing I noticed was that \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcI\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 was not there (at least not in the usual\/habitual sense that I feel myself … Continue reading