Observing myself in different situations, as Rinpoche suggests: “Observe the complex interrelationship between sensations, \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcmind\u00e2\u20ac\u2122, thoughts, emotions, and body which constitutes \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcyou in that situation\u00e2\u20ac\u2122”<\/p>\n
This TSK exercise (#7) has been powerful for me. Taking up the suggestion to become aware of \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcpartitions,\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 the exercise opened up an awareness of \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcsurfaces and partitions\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 between various domains \u00e2\u20ac\u201c e.g., between a body and a mind; between different parts of the body; and also between disowned experiences and the disowning \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcme\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 that identified itself as \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcthe mind.\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 Naturally, the less cathected boundaries tended to dissolve into spaciousness easier than some others.<\/p>\n
I discovered different kinds of \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcdisowned\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 experiences which were \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcpartitioned\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 off. For example, I could simply be resisting some unpleasant outward sense-experience, or I resisted experiences internal to me, either bodily or mental experiences. As a result, I have to question, with this observation, what this \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcme-mind\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 is, a mind that has separated itself off from unpleasant experiences within a broader mental field, and lays claim to being more core.<\/p>\n
As I stayed with this new discovery over a couple of hours, it opened into an experience of embodied trauma. At one stage while lying down I experienced a sense of a \u00e2\u20ac\u02dccentral energy-column\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 within me, compacted severely from both top and bottom \u00e2\u20ac\u201c the experience, it seemed, of a powerless consciousness compressed into a contracted space. The contractions in the body were very strong in this trauma-based experience. I was as kind as I could be to myself in this condition. If it happens again, it might be worth exploring the \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcsurfaces\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 at the top and bottom.<\/p>\n
– Christopher<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Observing myself in different situations, as Rinpoche suggests: “Observe the complex interrelationship between sensations, \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcmind\u00e2\u20ac\u2122, thoughts, emotions, and body which constitutes \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcyou in that situation\u00e2\u20ac\u2122” This TSK exercise (#7) has been powerful for me. Taking up the suggestion to become … Continue reading