The instructions operate by osmosis, bypassing intellect and discursive thinking. Like drinking a benignly potent medicine which is instantly absorbed by tongue, digestive system and bloodstream, whose essence immediately merges with the cells.<\/p>\n
I set out to attempt the exercises freshly, without reference to previous meditation or practise times \u00e2\u20ac\u201c just trying to notice what is actually occurring.<\/p>\n
Subject: spacious, open, empty and feeling <\/i>; sensations, alive.<\/p>\n
Object: substantial, colourful; somehow occurring in<\/i> subject as well as being away from.<\/i><\/p>\n
Although there is distance, everything is at the same time \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcin here\u00e2\u20ac\u2122, though each object has a different colour, shape, texture, size \u00e2\u20ac\u201c each creates a feeling \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcin here\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 as well.<\/p>\n
There is body seen as object<\/i> (e.g. looking down at body seated in chair; observing hand holding pen moving across page). But there is also body as changing field of sensations that is \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcin here\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 but also \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcover there\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 (slightly distanced) from what is observing it.<\/p>\n
Dominance of emotional state, intense chemistry \u00e2\u20ac\u201c that is also at some distance from what is observing it whilst being more substantial in feeling<\/i>, (though not solid) than the observed external objects.<\/p>\n
What is seeing\/knowing\/observing\/sensing all of this is of a different quality from all of it; a quality of open, receptive space.<\/p>\n
There is a sense with this exercise of not knowing how to do it, a suspicion that something crucial is being overlooked. Tracing suspicion: a sense of almost panic, then wanting to fall asleep, then wanting to give up TSK forever. Overwhelming sense of profound unknowingness.<\/p>\n
I experiment with actually being the wardrobe looking at me (like drama exercises I did at school), contrasted with being the observed object of the wardrobe as subject.<\/p>\n
Becoming comfortable with being at the receiving end of the attention of all the furniture in the room: a new kind of intimacy.<\/p>\n
\u00c2\u00a0* * *<\/p>\n
The sweet and encompassing sky<\/p>\n
gazes<\/p>\n
upon the conglomeration of patterns<\/p>\n
gathered in the chair beneath<\/p>\n
Allowing<\/p>\n
a new kind of kindness<\/p>\n
to be born<\/p>\n
Caroline<\/p>\n
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The instructions operate by osmosis, bypassing intellect and discursive thinking. Like drinking a benignly potent medicine which is instantly absorbed by tongue, digestive system and bloodstream, whose essence immediately merges with the cells. I set out to attempt the exercises … Continue reading