Ex.18 B<\/p>\n
Evening, in the theater sitting: how do I now experience time? Cutain has been opening. It is how gliding into my “self”. And, although I\u00c2\u00b4m looking toward the stage, I\u00c2\u00b4m nothing aware of the scene on stage. I\u00c2\u00b4m constantly changing between stage and inner observing. It seems given only either or. Than, for a shrt moment, I\u00c2\u00b4m staying on (perceiving) stage and inside me (perhaps more precise: with my breathing in and out). This short moment is a quiet, soft and cheering experienced feeling, whichcomprise a lot in my consciousness. If I would describe this,this”opening” immediately would disappear.<\/p>\n
I experience time, mor or less clearly, as flow, something flowing. Than I\u00c2\u00b4m hesitating, thinking: this is my soft breathing, nothing else. All reflections about it will bring up new concepts, insights and so on, but this is not: experiencing time! Than hesitation again: do I experience my thinking flow? There is a movement, a kind of passing – means time-flow. Nevertheless I\u00c2\u00b4m composed, not confused – although my awareness is very changeable.<\/p>\n
Than a sequnce on stage with music, loud, rhythmical:Oh, now I\u00c2\u00b4m more closely in the flow of time. My foot beats the rhythm.What is felt time, what is movement in the foot, in my mind? The whole experience is very time-ful. Do you have this word?<\/p>\n
\u00c2\u00a0On the way home ,at night, driving car, I hear the sound of the rolling car. I see the asphalt in the light in front of me: I\u00c2\u00b4m gliding! Again this “multiple” feeling, as if I\u00c2\u00b4m riding on a time-wave. My wife is asking me sth. and “schwupps”, I\u00c2\u00b4m in another world.<\/p>\n
Ex. 19 is too much for me, less to difficult. I would have to write to much. It is my “daily bread” in therapy, we do nothing else, up and down.<\/p>\n
After lon reflectioning, I came to the focus\/picture: it is like a hourglas. Above much fine sand( the pastcollection), than there is much crum in front of the closely way-through of the glas. The most closely part is my presence, being wake, conscious here and now. Than the uge reservoir of the future( the other half of the glas)<\/p>\n
I know, that\u00c2\u00b4s a poor comparison, everytime is something missing. In German we say: jeder Vergleich hinkt- means, every comparison is limping.<\/p>\n
Looking forward to the second week<\/p>\n
Arthur<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ex.18 B Evening, in the theater sitting: how do I now experience time? Cutain has been opening. It is how gliding into my “self”. And, although I\u00c2\u00b4m looking toward the stage, I\u00c2\u00b4m nothing aware of the scene on stage. I\u00c2\u00b4m … Continue reading