Being confused it is difficult to write a post. When I write nevertheless, I know, that experiences and thoughts are mixed. On a subtil level its difficult for me, to distinguish experiences and thoughts and very often I don\u00c2\u00b4t \u00c2\u00b4see\u00c2\u00b4anything. Well, I try to\u00c2\u00a0sort my thoughts out.<\/p>\n
What\u00c2\u00b4s a moment?\u00c2\u00a0In my ordinary life\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0moments are very rare: for example a\u00c2\u00a0lightning or a sudden idea (Aha-Erlebnis). Usual I experience in unities: a day, a night, a job I want to do or I am doing, a thought (a sentence) , going a step or a breath.\u00c2\u00a0All on a makro-level.<\/p>\n
Moment appears to me like a construct like a second, a thousandth second. When I try to work with moments I apply this construct\u00c2\u00a0to my experience. And I ask: is that what I seemingly experince, is it more thought or experience? And I become confused.<\/p>\n
For example: I take a breath (thats a unity). I can experience this taking the breath. There are many sensations (moving of my breast and so on). Is wonderful, as if many colorful and twittering birds were coming an sitting down on a blooming bush (similar\u00c2\u00a0to the experiences doing the slow walk; experiences on a makro level). – But I want to observe moments very closely (on the microlevel). For me it is like chopping arbitrarily a whole up into pieces. What I\u00c2\u00b4m finding is very, very,very much: and in the quater, sixteenth… (moments in between) more and more, the gaps between the moments begin to bubble…..but: is this phantasy, experience, thoughts or a mixture of all. I become overwhelmed, confused, I feel resistence: I don\u00c2\u00b4t want to chop, for example the thought, the word, the noise of a letter, the vibration in throat and ear, the amplitude of the sound wave. I don\u00c2\u00b4t want. Without holding on I feel like in the center of New York, I feel flooded (this experience is very different to yours, David.)<\/p>\n
Whith exercise 22 (LOK): Where can I find the X? Between inhaling and outhaling? The gap between thoughts? For me the transition\u00c2\u00a0is a mystery.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n
Peter (Ludwig)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Being confused it is difficult to write a post. When I write nevertheless, I know, that experiences and thoughts are mixed. On a subtil level its difficult for me, to distinguish experiences and thoughts and very often I don\u00c2\u00b4t \u00c2\u00b4see\u00c2\u00b4anything. … Continue reading