{"id":700,"date":"2008-05-14T12:21:04","date_gmt":"2008-05-14T19:21:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cciforum.dreamhosters.com\/2008\/05\/14\/week-5-dts-ex-21-healing-through-light\/"},"modified":"2020-05-24T13:42:47","modified_gmt":"2020-05-24T20:42:47","slug":"week-5-dts-ex-21-healing-through-light","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cciforum.dreamhosters.com\/?p=700","title":{"rendered":"Week 5 – DTS Ex. 21 – Healing through Light"},"content":{"rendered":"

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I sat this morning before the sun rose with no purpose other than to sit without nodding off. In the middle of the silence, a calm slowly dawned<\/em>, like diminishing shadows in a valley. I came to a perspective where observing was spacious. Space was more than just area between objects, but felt like a knowing of a valley of contours only because the light allowed<\/em> shadows. Light was the FEEL of awareness before or as individual differentiations. Freedom from the pressures of asserting identity and no need for moment-to-moment reassurance was noticed. Noticeable by whom?\u00c2\u00a0Noticeable to a shadow-self allowed to co-exist within the light, but which can become enlightened<\/em>. There is an alternating as mind process carries away thoughts and feelings between me and not me. Observance alternates with object-less, concept-less knowing, the moments mix and entwine in recognition of light<\/em> with shadows of not-knowing<\/em> in a rhythm.\u00c2\u00a0There is this sympathetic interweaving of rhythmic flows, like breath, one full of self, timed with intent and looking for things; then alternating with its focused release, emptiness, weightlessness, freedom from measurement and meaning — lightness<\/em>.<\/p>\n

I felt one moment my diaphragm was reflexively tightening as attention was gripping thought: Clenching it with body language as mental language carried me away with a story line \u00e2\u20ac\u201c then sudden realization, ‘clarity’<\/em> \u00e2\u20ac\u201c seeing the process.\u00c2\u00a0In that seeing was letting go of the linearity of story; space opening into knowing space, the knowing capacity, the light<\/em>… something like immense relief as in letting go an isometric clenching, but feeling that opening expand exponentially.<\/p>\n

In terms of color, I often see internal light (with eyes closed) as a glowing perspective, like a golden-reddish glow in the dark, as the picture above shows without any objects in it.\u00c2\u00a0But often there can be blues, rust, white light, and others too. Knowing has a warm and energetic feel when I allow a more open access to it.\u00c2\u00a0While it’s true, I’m looking with my eyes at the inside of my eyelids, however, not focusing on what the eye sees, allows a deeper, more occipital kind of seeing.\u00c2\u00a0Beyond a certain point there is just light, until darkness is approached.\u00c2\u00a0 If total darkness comes it happens as ‘a blackout’<\/em>, as if going to sleep, except I’m not asleep, just gone \u00e2\u20ac\u201c no light<\/em>; and when the blackout <\/em>goes, the light of awareness returns.<\/p>\n

The blackout<\/em> is curious to me, and Rinpoch\u00c3\u00a9 says in the exercise, “If \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcno basis\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 has a meaning, it will become a basis for excluding light. If it has no meaning, it will lead to the lostness of the dark. Perhaps it is better not to focus on \u00e2\u20ac\u02dcnot there\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 at all.<\/em>” I’m not entirely sure what that means, but it seems to point toward the light<\/em>, that the point of time, space, and knowledge is in the light of knowing and not-knowing, but not the blackout, <\/em>which is the absence of light and TSK.<\/p>\n

David<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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