I often go back to the question at DTS page 112: Without the usual structures of from and to that accompany linear temporality, we may well not know how to proceed: where to go …Why feel compelled to go anywhere at all?
That is very very challenging!
Another question which arises for me: Is the feeling of aliveness another story or another place where I want to go to?
Karin
Dear Michael,
thank you for your comment to my question. Your explanation is helpful and encouraging to me. When I thought it over, I noticed my tendency to negativity and doubt – as if there is no way out.
But, of course, there is a way out! Many people realized it!
Sincerely
Karin
Hi Karin,
You ask if the feeling of aliveness can be another story. Perhaps. Or at least, our story-making narrator may immediately take it over, and give it a twist that serves the purposes of the self. But I think there must be something in us that is more true than the fictions we constantly weave. And how can that part of us make itself known? Gurdjieff said it was a “pang of conscience.” Perhaps when we suddenly feel bad about something (and say I must not ever be like that again), that is the most reliable sign that a true part of us has risen from the depths (because the feeling serves no other purpose than to change). But don’t you think that, at least sometimes, the feeling of being alive is our most reliable guide for reclaiming an abandoned part of our humanity? It gives us the light in which to see the unnecessary darkness we have accepted. Michael