Sorry for being behind in registering these experiences, but I would still like to make them available for any comment by Jack, or others.
Subject- Object reversal – as I allow objects to ‘know’ me, there is relaxation in blending into the ongoing flow of the world around. This reminds me of the many times over the years that I have observed a situation within which I am invoved with a kind of instinctive neutral eye, seeing all the elements within it as being like actors in a play, and myself – my actions, reactions, thought processes – as being just like any other figure in this ‘tapestry’. When I do this I immediately start to wonder what makes my personal perspective so unique, so different from the rest of the play. I see all that ‘ego-self’ stuff as an unnecessary impediment to freedom of action, of ‘flow’. But even when there is only the flow of the experience, to me there is still an observer, an ‘I’ which is doing the merging with the experience.
Conducting the Vision – so often I tend to equate awareness with sensory awareness i.e. it is externally directed. Internal awareness (thoughts, feeling, etc.) are, of course, much more difficult to separate from, to be separately aware of. Awareness seems to sit behind thought but is so often impeded by the “modifications of the mind”. In moving in to this internal awareness, I feel I am beginning to tap into ‘universal consciousness’, which streams throughout the perceived world. This also relates to the Subject-Object reversal practice – such consciousness exists as much in every object I observe as it does within me, the observer. As I reverse, I ‘allow’, I let go of the controlling ‘me’. Through this, awareness grows. I think this ‘allowing’ is an incredibly important part of being able to embody the TSK vision.
Gaynor