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Moments of deep experience I new through the death of my friend Suneth. Suddenly the linear time stopped to be and I found myself in a space that was new and unexplored for me. There was no old pattern, that the Self could count on, no chances to look to experiences from the past, no hope for the future. Everything was new, in each second. And there was no fear only astonishment about diving into a different dimension of being that showed up in front of me. This astonishment was so big that the pain and the suffering  dissappeared for a while. It all came back when I entered the linear time again with all the painful feelings of loss and emptiness. This experience was so intense and long lasting that the heaviest pain I had felt in the first days after Suneths death didn’t come back. It was a liberation.