First week

Hi all, well-known and unknown. Since Friday I´´ve access to Internet again and I´m in the tsk online program .

I need some days beyond Sunday to make up my absence.

I´ll limit my first post to one, real two experience with a similar result. I did Ex. 7 and noticed the huge aspects which are possible and hidden in this exercise. It turns out, that I often come back to my breathing and this experience I´ll describe. I found out, I could observe best in a lying position, lying in bed, in the early morning. And, participation as observer  of objects outside, in distance of me, is much more easy than observing of phenomenons inside of my body. So, to distinguish between observer, observing and the observed feeling, tension, movement and so on, was difficult.

I could see the up and down of my chest. The effect of a deep, relaxed breath moved the hole body. What, to where I can observe? Then, when I´m aware of breathing and feeling my tongue on the palate together I noticed this complex, multidimensionale process. And trying to remain aware of my own presence as the observer of all the patterns, as suggested in Ex. 9A, I was surpriced at that richness of these experiences. And all happens together , not as a detail after detail, and not in a linear course, all together. It seems only a question of awareness, observing, noticing. This richness, fullness is most time in me/us. But normally I´ve no idea about it( is this perhaps the meaning of “frozen” ? something, or these events inside are, in German, erstarrt. in stiffness, not conscious?)

I`m a unconscious being.

More and more it was difficult to stay in a clear position of observing: observing and experiencing melt together(or it seems so to me)

Do I remember correct: there is a Glossary” on the CD to find sth. about “freezing”, “frozen”, “come out”? A directly translation leads sometimes on a wrong way.

Arthur