First an experience with my grandchild, I don´t understand:
I met my 10 days old grandchild for the first time. She was lying in her little car, the arms upward near the head with closed hands (fists), the eyes were closed . – I bent over her and thought a little blessing mantra. (I didn´t say anything.) And she opened her right hand.
There are many possible interpretations. But: who is subject, who object, what happens in the “gap”, who is the “glow” of whom?
Second: a few experiences with ex.17.
Early in the morning (there are no disturbances) I feel a longing to come nearer to objects, to become their glow. It seems strenuous, to hold all the objects far away. They “want” to come. I feel relaxation, when they come nearer. – When they are beginning to touch me I become frightened, very subtil. I´m worried they could “eat up” myself. Then there would be no self, no I. Then it would be unpossible for me to look at, to define, to recognize, to handle the situation. And I begin, to push the object away.
The experiences with Ex. 17 seem related to visualization.
 Peter (Ludwig)
Hi Peter,
I wanted to thank you for your last comment; it opened new space for me. You said, “Being the glow the object becomes much richer. It seems that I feel much more of the object.”
At that very moment I looked up from reading your statement at the green leaves outside my window just as the sun lit them up and they glowed. It was strange because in that moment your statement was fulfilled in me. The experience was full, and ‘rich’ with enjoyment, and you had a part in it. Thank you.
Best wishes,
David
Once more: Experiences with different objects:
Beeing the glow the object becomes much richer. It seems that I feel much more of the object.
But I feel: the object has much qualities of the subject. I don´t feel the obeject for itself. When I like the object (a flower), it´s easy to be the glow. When it seems neutral (something I never saw before) it´s nearly the same. But when I don´t love or hate the “object”, it is very difficult for me to be the glow.
Sometimes much of object and subject (the object and its glow) seem to be the same.
For example: to be the glow of the cross (??, “Kreuz” in german) in Christianity seems for me impossible.
I came back from a journey. I was very tired and slept for an hour. When I woke up, I saw “windows” I never saw before. I was bewildered – slowly the windows and the room became “my” room and the I was relieved.
Was I in contact for a short time really with that, we usually call “window”?
(Peter greets Peter Ludwig)
Experiences with different objects:
(Yesterday I was in a concert with very artistic polyphony music (Bach: Das musikalische Opfer.)
With concrete objects it seems easier to be the “glow”: A flower, a chair, also a well known concrete symbol (a stupa).
There are more difficulties with music. For me it seems possible, to be the glow of a (monophonic) sound – but with this special music of Bach it seemed unpossible for me.)
Why?
Am I too inexperienced with this musik, (too low musical comprehension)?
Or is this music very near (similar) to our usual linear thinking:
Several linear lines, tied together and unfolding in linear time?
Is it possible to be the glow of a long abstract argumentation for example in Philosophy?
I want to go back to concrete objects.
Peter.