In my early morning practice I often do the Kum Nye exercise “Cleansing Breath” (cleansing from attitudes with which I push things away from me, attitudes and emotions with which I hold onto things and the dull and confused quality of my everyday mind.)
Suddenly -during the following Kum Nye exercise – there was a strong feeling, that self and world wanted to come neer together, to find intimacy and past and future to be one with present. It seemed to me that I´m oppressing (?) space and time. A bright moment and the word “marriage”, “celebration” (in german: Jubelfest) came into my mind.
Was it a desire? The feeling felt more like a desire of time and space, a power of time and space, like a strong magnet I am usual working against.Â
“The world might construct itself” (as Jack says). There was the desire (?), the wish (?) the “to let the ??? do what it wants” (?) — to die into life.
(I am a little bit ashamed, when I tell about this personal experience. I don´t know, if it fits to “week five”, to confusion.)
Peter Ludwig
