Hi. My dictionary says: correlation. But with co-relation I have had to think about this. The readings and objects of this week come closer to me and reverse, I come closer to this work.
A. what make the subject the subject? With the help of reversing I found an answer(for this moment). I followed the suggestion and took another person, my wife, as the object. Last day we´ve had some trouble- but after breakfast we had a good “chat” -and the air was clean again.
When I´m trying to identify with my wife, looking through her eyes to Arthur, than is this trying limited. Whatever, how consistent, right my intuition is close to her (feelings, thoughts etc.) all is work from Arthur. So, what make the subject the subject? The origin of my feelings, thoughts etc., they are perceptible only by, with me. Whatever happens – it is second hand. And nevertheless, there is a kind of more open, a kind of transition. Is there something melting of me with me (my self).? This A.-Ex. is more worrying, disturbing, than next exercise B. The positions, both, subj. and obj. are more clear.
In C., it seems to me: here I´m at home! The subject is I , my self, that´s me. Is this a misunderstanding of me? I remember: the self- that´s me! And the self erects barriers. And the subject is me too? I use this term similar, perhaps to coarse as synonyms. And if I do this, I find answers about: how is the subject constituted? With this experiences, which come to life, appearing lifelike. And what determines its bounderies? Here I feel more changability, flexability. I´m “in” and same time separated. The feeling is like an enrichment and be expanding.
I´m glad to be more back in the process. While last two weeks “I was dancing on two weddings”. I have to tell Jack a Hello from Darakshan, from R.L.retreat in summer.
Arthur
 , it seems to me: here I´m at home!
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