As a result of further practice and some TSK class work, I’ve done some fine tuning to the way I’ve been observing time at different levels. I’ve returned to the activity of painting a watercolor to dive deeper into time to observe how the referential activity of back and forth ‘pointings‘ between past objects (memories), and future imaginings of how my painting will develop if ‘I the self’ (a consolidating tendency) in this moving present, take certain actions with color, water, and brushstrokes on paper.
I’ve previously described the post “Painting as Practice – Transcendence of Pointings”; as when the self gets out of the way and ‘dissolves‘ as process takes over, which by the dictionary would mean the self would fade away gradually and disappear, but on closer investigation, and after Jack questioning: “…does the self perhaps go into hiding when it gets out of the way? Are there different levels of being aware of the flow of time?” I see that the self doesn’t just disappear but does in a sense, get out of the way as a dominating influence. The self as a tendency to consolidate just seems to revert to a more subtle level, which does not subordinate objects and emphasize dominance of position or distance, even while knowing seems to differentiate and refer, and that from a first level time perspective appears to simply ‘hide’. It seems that from a second level time perspective the self may still work but in a non-dominating and more inclusive way, where linearity is not a groove that must be adhered to, and where the first level linear groove of past-present-future seems to open up.
Diving deeper in meditation at a subtle, pre-sequencing, spaced-out level, that is without body-sense, if the glow of knowingness is experienced from a perspective, there is still ‘self’ and ‘knowing space’, but when perspective is dropped there is just being knowingness. If the space is in front of me, I’ve taken a perspective on space, dropping the point of view seems to leave only knowing space-time.
David
