With some TSK exercises I have the feeling that I’m not sure if I understand what’s being asked; suspect I may have totally misunderstood, am not approaching it right, don’t know how/where to look, or am not ready for this at all, and think that everyone else knows what they’re doing! This week’s task elicits such feelings in the ‘I’ that is typing.
Then I wonder if there would even be any sense of ‘I’ had it not been taught and learnt from a pre-verbal stage no longer accessible by memory.
So – I just determined to focus on subject-object and see what happens…
I also went ahead and did the reading for next week and practised TSK Ex 29 – Awareness as a Reflective Surface. I seem to ‘get’ some exercises easily, and this is one of them. I love it (and am working on a posting about it which I’ll keep till next week)
AND it seemed to create an instant shift in the subject-object challenge: it’s as though the world tilts and possibilities previously obscured from view become available to be seen. There are subjects everywhere – and objects: hand feels cup, cup has tea as object; hand feels warmth which in its turn holds tiny multitudinous chemical reactions as its object, which in turn…it’s like an interwoven web of nested subjects and objects, none of which can be singled out as the primary subject or object; all witnessed in a huge, vast Seeing-Field.
Then ‘I’ discover ‘myself’ in ‘the kitchen’ – solidly established as a subject obsessively focusing on an imagined future in which I firmly want a specific outcome. Another part of the web of ‘lower knowledge’?