In the TSK Teachers Training course we’ve been working on the Knowledge aspect of the Time, Space, Knowledge vision. My teacher Jack Petranker says in his new book, ‘Inside Knowledge’:
“There is something fundamental about who we are, about our world and our place in the world, that we are failing to understand… The TSK vision invites us to ask…questions, NOT to arrive at [final] answers…because the moment we ask questions about the basic structures of reality, we make possible a new vision of what is so. We discover that despite everything we have learned, reality is not once and for all as we imagine it to be.â€
The following was a recent homework assignment…
Explore how thought arises, and moves from one thought to the next, and end and begin? How does the sequence confirm what has gone before? Do you watch knowledge unfold ‘from’ and ‘to’? Does knowing have a place in the head or body or heart? Does knowledge arise from the realm of the senses? How do mind, body, and awareness conduct one another? If one is the conductor for the others, how is that one conducted?
At a more surface level I seem to live in stories, thought-strings like trains that run on well-worn tracks. Storylines, thought-strings, and memory-knots, multiply like tangled yarn all balled up into a world view of the way things are, and who I am. I cycle them based on a deeper, usually unnoticed value system of importance. Stories about my future plans pop up over and over with varying degrees of urgency or concern, as I fit the storyline into a timeline, often measuring the distance between me-now and me-then. I have seen that those me’s are summaries of who I think I am and want to be – a hierarchy of stories. At the top, a short summary term like ‘me’ stands for layer upon layer of remembered impressions of years of stored experience, and momentary feelings.
All those experiences came through my senses, interpreted through the labels and stories I put together over time, stored and cataloged through my value system of what was felt to be good or bad for me, and through which every new experience gets filtered.
Relaxing further, is like sinking below the surface-waves of stories where I can see them, as if looking up as they merge and dissolve overhead. In this deeper calm there is noticing how a memory opens from sparsely filled-in summary-vignettes to deeper see-through impressions of the way they were put together, selected and added to, even felt. I cannot locate a ‘place’ from which these image-impressions arise, they seem to come from a dark silence, the way a poignant sound arises from a felt silence…a vital, alive awareness.
In the book Inside Knowledge, there is an essay by Tarthang Tulku Rinpoche entitled, Geographies of Knowledge, in which he says:
Having discovered the space that conducts knowledge, we have discovered the source of being. As an image for clarifying the different dimensionality of the knowledge-space, we might imagine that whatever appears has at its center an invisible hole, like the hole of a donut. Somehow, mysteriously, thought emerges from that hole to know the whole. TURNING PERCEPTION ON EDGE, we bring the hole into view, entering the hole, we discover how appearance comes to be.
The hole at the center opens into the knowledge dimension. Light flows through the opening, revealing appearance as the expression of knowledge. We can still trace the standard lineage of each appearance… p.128
…Yet the substantiality of each appearance lightens like the spray from an ocean wave. As thoughts are understood as expressions of knowledge, experience merges with the knowledge-space. Manifesting the open lightness of the hole…rigid causal chains, and self-confirming stories lose their heavy and compelling power… p.129
In a previous post, Glowing Journey in Time – DF, I described thoughts and memories coming out of holes like tunnels or black holes, where as Rinpoche says, “entering the hole, we discover how appearance comes to be.†As an example of conducting new knowledge, I discovered a deeper structure to memories, and then saw how I was conducting thoughts. You can read those descriptions by following the links… By the way, these links to previous expressions reminds me a little of those ‘worm holes‘ that led to previously formed impressions, a kind of breathing in and out of past and present…
Thanks for taking the trip through the wormholes of my therapeutic moments, Hayward. :-)
David
David
What a rich and charming delight traveling with you as you open to a free floating revelry and then examine the process that births that content. It all seems such an intimate sharing and time together. Thanks for the warmth this engenders. As for me, I note that the content of memory is state specific. I think I am looking out a window on the past, but then recognize that it is not a window, but rather a mirror of my current state. A happy present has happy memories and a sad present has sad memories. This is interesting because sometimes we say our unhappy past causes our current unhappiness, but I am coming to see this in reverse. By the way we share the same therapist (TT) and the same support group.
Hayward