A couple of weeks back I took up a suggestion of Jack’s to be at the edge of the emerging future. That was a great practice! Within a couple of days I found myself unhitched from ordinary time-frames – indeed, I felt, more stably than ever, that I truly didn’t have any idea what time was/is. I found myself living in a flow of intensity of experience. This seemed to make it easier to see when I was ‘identified’ with the narratives, because I could quickly feel the sense of being impeded in my flow.
I noticed, in those moments, the weight of accumulation of a life-times ‘purpose-making.’ I notice that my main impediment seems to be that I unconsciously assume ‘efforting’ (in the form of ‘serious purpose’ and its attendant narratives) is necessary to being myself. However, this exercise was great for lightening up, heaps.
Since then, the purposeless intensity of ‘experiencing’ hasn’t receded entirely – the sense of the identity of time with the flow of experiencing is with me like a perfume. Gassho, TSK, from Christopher.
This really resonates, Christopher. Very much like the way I felt too. It just point up to me how immersed I usually am in the stories of my self-pursuits.
Best wishes,
David