Last night I had a dream: I was in a school as a grown up pupil and I answered questions of the teacher. I cried (in a deep way) and said: I didn´t learn enough and I didn´t learn the right in my life. I wasted time and life.
All over the day I felt the sadness. – So: “cape diem” (make use of the day).
I read all posts, but I don´t understand all what is said. The difficult for me is, to bring the post in the context of the “world” of a person (who I don´t know) and then to understand what is told. So more often it is a sentence or a word, that touches me — and then I know, it´s important for me.
With Ex.9 I took the direction of the instruction, I know, it can be done far deeper! It seemed to me as if I waited for light.  But its difficult to tell about:”describing cuts us off from experience”. With Ex. 17 (The glow..) I met a large tree in front of my window. It´s autumn, I felt a relaxing intimacy.
The analysis in chapter 14 is like a cloud for me. I hear, I follow the dance of the arguments (sometimes I don´t understand all arguments) but they don´t touch me.
Nevertheless I remembered the time, when I worked at university. (I was more a teacher than a scientist.) At that time I tried to examine Kum Nye in accordance with the western “scientific model”. My experiences with Kum Nye and the gathered data didn´t match to each other. I failed with my attempts. Now I understand why: the western scientific model (in the way, I used it) can not touch the heart of Kum Nye. (apart from the fact of my hubris to examine an outlandish ancient way of meditation without deep experiences over years.)
But I learned much about Kum Nye – nothing to publish.Â
Peter Ludwig
