Welcome to Psychotics Anonymous. State your name, and a little about yourself

“Hello , my name is Remco and I train to be an embodiment of a new vision of reality”
Hello Remco
“Although this changed my social life and I lost some old friends because of it. And made the pursuit of a “normal” career like many people around me have seem ungratifying and undoable for me. And changed my pleasure in following politics and discussions, and in tv in general, to a dislike or making it seem as just a waist of time. And caused a (sometimes badly) hidden crazymaking feeling that scientists, philosophers, poets, writers, but actually maybe everyone, misses out on something and will never get the whole picture or even a worthwhile picture if they don’t share this or a familiar vision;
I still keep on training to be an embodiment.
Here are just some of my reasons, they are from a reading assignment from a small, very special group I train with. If it is to much text, just read the red parts. Or maybe, just read the red parts”:

“While space around objects may seem appropriate, necessary, and restful, space within objects may appear a little bewildering. And space considered by itself may appear meaningless, or perhaps even forbidding. (p7 (TSK))
We can leave logical analyses aside for the moment and continue to contemplate the comings and goings of things in our ‘mind’s eye’. (p10)
This new consideration of space is not concerned with conventional truths. (p10)
There is a sense in which, as a perception, or better still, as a vision, ordinary space may be related to the primary ground of all existence. (p11)
Initially, however, it is important to attend to space as we ordinarily experience it, for such an attending may serve as a doorway to a wider realm of understanding and, consequently, to the resolution of ordinarily intractable problems. (p11)
If we accept what occurs within our realm at face value, and are not aware of the structuring power of this ‘lower space’, appearance becomes false or misleading in the sense that its more fulfilling and significant dimensions elude us. It is as if we were being manipulated by a sort of local petty official, whose power actually derives from a larger government and whose actions express the will of that government. This petty official does not inform us of the source or purpose of his commands—maybe he himself is governing clandestinely—and so we cannot correctly judge our situation. We attribute powers and connections to what in fact lacks them, or to what has them only secondarily. (p12)
Rather, a properly-guided journey through certain of these spaces can result in the perception that they can be meaningfully ordered: spaces which are ‘higher’ and ‘bigger’, as opposed to ‘lower’ and ‘smaller’. (p13)
So, our initial efforts at transcendence may seem a little extreme, and the new space may look odd for a while. But as we become accustomed to the new space and look back on our old space from our new vantage point, the lower space may then seem strange. Our accommodating capacity needs to be greater, more balanced. (p13)”