TSK Exercise 32 is a beginning of a process that can deepen and expand in unimaginable ways. Unimaginable in the sense of opening new capacity to sense, to know, beyond the logos of ordinary reality. Light as a knowing capacity, rather than a visualization, is available, and it can be amazingly articulate. I say this only due to longtime practice of another path, Awakening Your Lightbody, which offers direct opportunities to activate this.
This becomes a living inquiry that is not bound in language, and barely in concepts. It’s like an ongoing exploration with no landing spots, but with areas of more or less stability. One of the significant challenges in this is the opening and closing of the self. As highlighted in the TSK books so often, the self naturally appropriates knowing into experiences and owned/frozen knowledge. The more knowing, or light, is activated and ‘awakening’ (verb form intended) the easier it is for the self to open and be present in ordinary reality more fluidly. But in the logos and timing of ordinary knowing that the self is part and parcel of, the self continually closes the aperture.
TSK p. 244 has a powerful statement: ‘The lower space we live in is not a solid and continuous place. It changes, becoming more or less open, with each single thought.â€
For me, this is a helpful way to bring higher knowledge into the self’s core engine, so to speak: thinking, which drives the self’s speech and action. That continues to be a big challenge for me – to engage ordinary reality and people and tasks with the mindfulness (appreciation of Space and Time) of a higher knowing, the light of knowing, allowing it to be active.
So, thinking, and the space of thinking and thoughts, and the time of thinking and thoughts offers a doorway to being a self in a world while also being Knowledge-Space-Time. Through our work this session I have been able to see newly a way to allow both to be active without the subtle negation of the self, or the self reaching for the higher. The light-knowing is present and the self is present. It’s just a beginning, but an important shift – a tension that I’ve held for so long.