I´m working hard and nearly enthusiastically in the garden: I want to let the garden be prepared when spring begins. At the same time I see much disorder within myself and around me (with things and persons) .
At the same time: I know: now begins course 3. I say: take time to do the exercises and look carefully at the readings. But I´m doing it superficially. It seems to me that I´m running away from going into the exercises and readings.
About ex. TSK 32: I remember an exercise in “Openness Mind”, chapter “Dream Lotus”. (Amongst other things: to visualize a candle with it flame in the throat.) For me this light is bright and fire-like and many thoughts begin to melt. I sometimes do this ex. with sounds and pictures, but when I do this in the evening, when I´m going to sleep, in this moment I fall asleep. The same, when I turn over problems in my mind during the night. What happens in the moment, when I fall asleep?             The candle-light in the ex. of dream-lotus seems related to the lights of ex. TSK 32. When I now go over my experiences with ex. TSK 32, it seems to me, that I smell something of Knowledge, and at the same time I don´t want to know.
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