From Inside the Future

Reading the sad story of how we helplessly, hopelessly conduct a dreary sameness forward, two lighter thoughts came to the rescue this morning: 1/ the strange statement in an earlier chapter that we contact the dynamic of time from inside the future; and 2/ a long-standing dilema in my home finances is showing signs of allowing new perspectives.  Briefly, my wife’s letter-carrier job is increasingly hard on her body, mind, and spirit, but we feel dependent on her income and benefits.  From inside the usual, prerecorded present this situation seems to offer more obstacles than solutions, which leads to the all-too familiar responses of discouragement and avoidance.  But in the past few days, perhaps precisely because the visible wear-and-tear of her job has increased, another perspective has opened: she really needs to quit this job.  This in turn shifts the focus to the future, and surprisingly the atmosphere feels lighter.  Now it is possible to say: her next job needs to be fulfilling, supportive of her health and well-being, and hopefully contribute a modest income.  From this saner future perspective, it feels like issues of income and expenses can be addressed in their own light–as opposed to constituting a present obstacle, which there is insufficient time and knowledge to overcome.  This feels like a familiar, if all-too-rare, phenomena.  At those times, when a feeling of not knowing what we can do next causes us to abandon something we have been fearfully clinging to, perhaps what is happening can be thought of as a shift into a future where that fear has lost its basis. Time’s dynamic was blocked and by stepping over the block we find ourselves in the flow again, and from there our intelligence and energy again become available.–Michael