After doing exercise 32 for three or four times, I had a sense that, before the practice, the feeling of space ‘outside’ was kind of cloudy and mysterious and ‘inside’ I was feeling a bit fearful. After exercise 32 – ‘outside’ space became clearer and illuminating. More comforting feelings spread ‘inside’ me. As all of me became surrounded by knowing lights I felt more trustful, my heart more willing to ‘open’. Only then ‘inside’ and ‘outside’ disappeared and there was just a sense of space all over, free from obstacles (partitions?). An open quality made experience lighter (in both senses of not heavy and illuminating) – As far as I understand what you call a “knowing capacity†it is this kind of inner quality in each lived experience when everything is clearer… am I right? But something seems to be very much resistant to it… the chattering mind which seems to feel threatened by all this light and clear state.
Marcia
