Hi! About “Week One and Two” I did a large amount of notes, keywords and more. When I wait to long (some days), than there is often a gap of intensity. The freshness and immediatly experience is lost. So I hesitate with writing and this “gap” becomes bigger.
One point don´t loose its freshness and the trigger (-point) is ” …..for instance, the sensation of sitting.” (in “A liitle nudge”)
After Ex. 34 A and reading 34 B I thought: oh, it will be very difficult! Now I tell starting with 34 A, with this ” alive, gentle, and loving energy”, with this “warm nectar”, flowing down the length of my spine. Visualizing this flow of energy ran better and better. With the last line in 34 A I could asked myself: what do I feel – speed, differently in particular parts, so, after occipital region, when the energy has been fallen down the spine, along the perineum, and reduced, up to the area between the eyes. What do I feel here? Do I feel this fast flow or is it an auto-suggestion, an idea, coming from my mind? What sets off what? I was not frustrated, not at all. Because this circulation became slowly a ” lightly manifestation”. Did I read this? No, it appearenanced within my inwards directed trying. For a short moment I thought: oh, this is meant, when I read about knowledge, knowingness, what every time makes me confused (because I´m unclear with the precise meaning). Now, there was no veil of doubting.
Do I feel the warmth of the nectar? Is this imagination? No, most clear I felt this “warm nectar” along the perineum, down the spine. But also upwards the belly and breast. Breathing helps the perception. This circulation ran very clear. I was disturbed practicing, back, I crossed my legs. No flow, no feelings like before. I put my legs on a chair, the same. What´s that. What I can interrupt with crossed legs? Is it a manifestation of what? Or has it to do with the headline of Ex. 34, ” embodiment”.
I found this orientation and a lot of questions with this notice about “sensation of sitting”. I was excited about this “discovery”, it helped me a lot to go deeper into the other suggestions of the exercises. It was a kind of key-experience, to risk more giving up older “standpoints”.
For today – Arthur